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by Left At London

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Reena Pang One of my favorite things about Left at London is her creativity and versatility, vocally and stylistically. I love her ability to command specific moods for her songs. It's just... it's really good stuff. Go buy it now! Favorite track: My Eyes Are Going Anyway.
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she👏has👏the👏range👏 Favorite track: Felt Like I Had Died.
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Gabe So I was listening to Transgender Street and I was like "wow, /@/ is pretty great, this is fantastic, I wonder what other albums she has?" and then I listened to this and was like "HOLY SHIT POLYRHYTHMS YES PLEASE" Favorite track: I-Thought-You-Said.
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released June 18, 2018

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Left At London Seattle, Washington

Left At London (sometimes stylized and shortened as /@/), is the stage name of Nat Puff (she/her), a trans woman from Seattle, Washington who is not afraid to let herself be known intimately through her music, while still remaining accessible.

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Track Name: My Eyes Are Going Anyway
I reminisce to days In Montreal,
Elementary, Grey consumes the wall,
If I had died, I thought of what I'd say,
My Eyes Are Going Anyway

I played the music just to play pretend,
Visit cinemas, see the film again,
I'd talk to someone, but he passed away.
My Eyes Are Going Anyway

The keys would play my song,
But I'd start it early on,
After all the smoke had gone
The fabric used to mend
Father, make me who I am
Maybe God will save me then

So when I saw her break the distances,
I would move for her, Faking happiness,
I've found another one who said she'd stay
My Eyes Are Going Anyway

Now the blue surrounds my skin
What a place I'm living in
Make the verses on a whim
And 6 years to be proud,
7 more to speak aloud
Melodies to break me out

The bus can take me from my neighborhood,
If I had the years, then I surely would,
Because I'd master what was loved today,
My Eyes Are Going Anyway

I saw my friends the date of 50 years,
Started from the soul, And reduced to tears
What used to flourish now is turned to grey,
My eyes have gone away
Track Name: I-Thought-You-Said
Stillborn
Let it Kill your daughter
through the cross-eyed
Father put his hearts of mine
below him
Rolling in the backseat with me
But I'd like to

change their mind
Was it good for you or
Was it bad before
May I take you with
and put your faith in us
Show me that you,
Show me how you last

Lovely, love me
Or lonely am I

And I found I'm going home
But now I won't complain
'cause my heart is fading out

Postwar,
I wake up for hours
from the static
Saved the memorabilia
in The town store
But I'll leave the crib here for now

So I felt this weather
I could see it running down
your gold oak
Sang amen to lead me
through the harvest
killed off every orchid we found

Lovely, love me
Or lonely am I

And I found I'm going home
But now I won't complain
'cause my heart is fading out

when you say you want to die
do you mean to say forever?
And If God was gone for good
would hell be something better

And I found I'm going home
But now I won't complain
'cause my family's going home
with me
Track Name: Les Funérailles (Prologue)
My apologies to the mourning hosts
I cannot bear to see their daughters ghost
I saw it stand beside me last week
My apologies, hope you get this soon
Gary Numan is locked inside my room

Cuz outdoors is horrid
& TV is boring
& these walls remind me of you

I wanna deserve you
I wanna preserve you at no cost but
I might as well kill you
You might as well already be lost inside my
Unresponsive head
The day you're born again's when I expire

I don't wanna be happy anymore
Anecdotal emotions for this war
It didn't stop your knife from bleeding
My apologies, no way to behave
Being bitter will not make you be saved

Cuz I am abhorrent
Cuz you remain dormant
Cuz I prob'ly messed up again

We coulda been worth it
I could've been list'ning to your plight &
We coulda been perfect
But your brand of perfect isn't quite as kind to
All of my regrets
The day you're born again's when I get tired

I've been thinking in copious amounts
I'm becoming you slowly without doubt
I might join you in heaven next year
Or I'd rather I wait till you arrive
If I die, then I'll make it out alive

Cuz Life is for losers and
Death is for strangers and
Scrapbooks for everyone else,

Oh, I know just how to love you
I will become an angel that can
Paint your grace from above you
I will buy all the frames, so you don't

Weaken down again
The day your born again's when I'm inspired
Track Name: Felt Like I Had Died
I liked to say I tried
But I never would
I wish I could’ve cried
But I never should

& when I heard
The raucously loud
Saying they wish they understood,
It felt like I had died
But I never could


I liked to say I’m fine
But I hadn’t been
I’m not the type to whine
Except when I am

& I could ghost
On everyone else
But I wouldn’t wanna pretend
That I’m alone this time
Cuz Ive chosen when


I’ve been getting more distractions
Saw my past & guessed your actions
I’ve been stimming with the trigger
Of a gun

You could ask me how I’m feeling
Pull my hands off of the ceiling
I will love you till We Make it
to the sun

But last we spoke
Before you drove off
You had lied “I’ll talk to you soon”
So it felt like you died
When you left the room

I liked to say I tried
But I never would
I wish I could’ve cried
But I never should

& when I heard
The raucously loud
Saying “guess I misunderstood”,
It felt like I had died
But I never could

But I never could
But I never could
But I never could
But I never could
But I never could
But I never could
Track Name: STAAR
Black hair with the crib grown out
Face mask, little gun pulled out
I’m gonna make you a staar
Lil one all commodified
Happily oblige, my child
I’m gonna make you a staar

No wonder you grew so old
In that amount of time
You don’t know soul
I just know your fate
I love how easy to convince
you are
My staar

My staar

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