On my first day out,
My familiar town
Felt the same as in my dreams

Crying in my sleep,
When the sun came down,
Thinking “I am cured, it seems,”

But,

I don’t know my name at all
But what else is new, oo-ooh, oo-ooh, oo-ooh
Should I show my pain at all?
If you only knew,

You could try to help
Care is imprecise
All that I have left;
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(You could try to help
Care is imprecise
All that I have left…)

(I need to steal something
I need to feel something
I need to dream something
I need to be something
I need to get better
I got to get better
I used to be better
But I could never be them again)

Cure me if you can,
Say I’ll be okay,
I don’t mind if it’s a lie
I can burn this bridge,
It could be today,
But you’d know the reason why

(Where are you right now?)

Please hold me down
Please let me drown
Please hold me down
Please let me drown

&

I know that somethings missing
Or rather, something else is there
I spend the day existing
You spend it being unaware

The times I wake up smiling
Feel like I’m making fun of you
I left the ER crying
So what’s the use in trying now?

Please let me down
Don’t let me drown
Please let me down
Don’t let me drown

I need to steal something
I need to feel something
I need to dream something
I need to be something
I need to get better
I got to get better
I used to be better
But I could never be them again

I need a sign
& I’ll be fine
(The straighter the line, the more it’s manmade)
Circles confine
us by design
(But at least the 3D printers handmade)

I need a sine
& I’ll be fine
(The straighter the line, the more it’s manmade)
Circles confine
us by design
(But at least the 3D printers handmade)

I’ve been building off of you,
I’ve been texting on the freeway just to talk to you
&
I know you wouldn’t want me to
But I know if any later, you won’t follow through
Yeah

“& I have noticed you’ve had it hard
Even since the attack
And I would take you up to the stars
If I knew you'd be back

& I have noticed you’ve had it hard
Even since the attack
And I would take you up to the stars
If I knew you'd be back”

(Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o)

& even though I know it’s been hard
I could never go back

If everything were better,
Then I’m sure i’d be
A little less emotional

I never really understood
Whats wrong with me
Or why I’m unapproachable

But every time I close my eyes,
You’re lookin’ quite like my mirror,
I’m plagiarizing everything,
Stuttering soliloquies
(Who am I/are you again?)

Is this the storm
Before the calm?
Is it the clock or just
The ticking of the bomb?

We sacrifice
What we both need
But if i fight for you,
Then how do we proceed?

& if you fight for me,
Then how do we proceed?

& if we fight again
then how do we proceed?

(I’ve been building off of you,
I’ve been texting on the freeway just to talk to you
&
I know you wouldn’t want me to
But I know if any later, you won’t follow through
Yeah

I’ve been building off of you,
I’ve been texting on the freeway just to talk to you
&
I know you wouldn’t want me to)

So now I’m telling ‘em
Do you understand?
Do you understand?
Do you understand?
Cuz right now, doesn’t seem like you can

Start to climb, & then I get a little higher
I’m a coward, it don’t matter what I do,
From “I can’t do it anymore” to “I can’t do it, I can’t do it,”
Told myself I wanna die,
So how am I supposed to prove it now?

Spend too many of my minutes getting higher
I’ve attempted way too much to even count,
I’ve been committed, but committed to the people that I love
& if I try to love myself, I guess that I could live forever
crying

So

Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness
Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness
Again

(Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness
Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness)
For now

but on my last day out,
Let me scream to God,
Family, friends & enemies,
“So what happens next?
Is this what you want?
All I am is dead to me”
So

I can’t hear my voice at all
What was I to do?
Did I have a choice at all?
Seems I never do

You could try to help
Care is imprecise
All that you’d have left;
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I could try to heal
Care is imprecise
All that I’d have left;
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