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1. |
Pills & Good Advice
10:13
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On my first day out,
My familiar town
Felt the same as in my dreams
Crying in my sleep,
When the sun came down,
Thinking “I am cured, it seems,”
But,
I don’t know my name at all
But what else is new, oo-ooh, oo-ooh, oo-ooh
Should I show my pain at all?
If you only knew,
You could try to help
Care is imprecise
All that I have left;
Pills & good advice
(You could try to help
Care is imprecise
All that I have left…)
(I need to steal something
I need to feel something
I need to dream something
I need to be something
I need to get better
I got to get better
I used to be better
But I could never be them again)
Cure me if you can,
Say I’ll be okay,
I don’t mind if it’s a lie
I can burn this bridge,
It could be today,
But you’d know the reason why
(Where are you right now?)
Please hold me down
Please let me drown
Please hold me down
Please let me drown
&
I know that somethings missing
Or rather, something else is there
I spend the day existing
You spend it being unaware
The times I wake up smiling
Feel like I’m making fun of you
I left the ER crying
So what’s the use in trying now?
Please let me down
Don’t let me drown
Please let me down
Don’t let me drown
I need to steal something
I need to feel something
I need to dream something
I need to be something
I need to get better
I got to get better
I used to be better
But I could never be them again
I need a sign
& I’ll be fine
(The straighter the line, the more it’s manmade)
Circles confine
us by design
(But at least the 3D printers handmade)
I need a sine
& I’ll be fine
(The straighter the line, the more it’s manmade)
Circles confine
us by design
(But at least the 3D printers handmade)
I’ve been building off of you,
I’ve been texting on the freeway just to talk to you
&
I know you wouldn’t want me to
But I know if any later, you won’t follow through
Yeah
“& I have noticed you’ve had it hard
Even since the attack
And I would take you up to the stars
If I knew you'd be back
& I have noticed you’ve had it hard
Even since the attack
And I would take you up to the stars
If I knew you'd be back”
(Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o
Middle-ay, middle-ay o
middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o)
& even though I know it’s been hard
I could never go back
If everything were better,
Then I’m sure i’d be
A little less emotional
I never really understood
Whats wrong with me
Or why I’m unapproachable
But every time I close my eyes,
You’re lookin’ quite like my mirror,
I’m plagiarizing everything,
Stuttering soliloquies
(Who am I/are you again?)
Is this the storm
Before the calm?
Is it the clock or just
The ticking of the bomb?
We sacrifice
What we both need
But if i fight for you,
Then how do we proceed?
& if you fight for me,
Then how do we proceed?
& if we fight again
then how do we proceed?
(I’ve been building off of you,
I’ve been texting on the freeway just to talk to you
&
I know you wouldn’t want me to
But I know if any later, you won’t follow through
Yeah
I’ve been building off of you,
I’ve been texting on the freeway just to talk to you
&
I know you wouldn’t want me to)
So now I’m telling ‘em
Do you understand?
Do you understand?
Do you understand?
Cuz right now, doesn’t seem like you can
Start to climb, & then I get a little higher
I’m a coward, it don’t matter what I do,
From “I can’t do it anymore” to “I can’t do it, I can’t do it,”
Told myself I wanna die,
So how am I supposed to prove it now?
Spend too many of my minutes getting higher
I’ve attempted way too much to even count,
I’ve been committed, but committed to the people that I love
& if I try to love myself, I guess that I could live forever
crying
So
Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness
Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness
Again
(Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness
Don’t cry for me,
For I’ve found peace in the madness
Peace in the madness)
For now
but on my last day out,
Let me scream to God,
Family, friends & enemies,
“So what happens next?
Is this what you want?
All I am is dead to me”
So
I can’t hear my voice at all
What was I to do?
Did I have a choice at all?
Seems I never do
You could try to help
Care is imprecise
All that you’d have left;
Pills & good advice
I could try to heal
Care is imprecise
All that I’d have left;
Pills & good advice
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Marion, born december 5th, a sagittarius,
Mother & father, 2 little sisters, all were immigrants,
America was waiting for you
America was waiting for you
Marion’s fam’ly saw his humor as absurdity
Nevertheless, he joined the local university
& studied for a third of his life
He studied for a third of his life
& passed the bar
He was a lawyer
working for free
& was fervid in speech
All of the workers
That he’d protect
say he practiced what he preached
Hated the mayor, so he petitioned to recall the guy
For he attempted selling off Seattle City Light,
two hundred thousand names on the form
two hundred thousand names on the form
He, with the people on his side, became a congressman
Winning a district often taken by republicans
To Washington from Washington state
To Washington from Washington state
At 32
When re-elected,
Everyone loved him
Except for his peers
A coalition
Set on his downfall
Would form in his last years
He married a woman he knew for a week cuz he couldn’t wait
Took part in a riot while still on his honeymoon
They took him away in a jacket to the sanitarium
Declared as insane, jumped the fence of the place, & soon
returning home, announced his re-election
Then called the campaign off again
Almost as if becoming lesser like yourself had been an art,
Marion, less subdued & sober, saw the world observe him fall apart
He wrote a note & left his window several stories high
Landed abruptly near the car his wife was waiting by
They say she changed the day that he died
They say she changed the day that he died
& in the note, he said his only hope in life had been
That he’d improve upon the way the world was living in
But people only knew him as strange
The people only knew him as strange
And nothing more
Were you a genius,
Were you a fool,
or in need of a cure?
Was it in anger,
Was it in fear,
or had it been in fervor?
All of the quirks we used to have are now a symptom of
Acronyms we don’t get to know that we’re the victims of
Then people say that we’ll never change
& so, of course we don’t ever change
But still, we try
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Take a little food & water
I can let you share the shelter
Maybe this’ll help you find your faith
In mankind that you lost
Hope you ‘preciate the offer,
I just hope you’re feeling better
Maybe we can burn the bridge we’ll take
to get there when it’s crossed
(I) know you’ve been abused
& I know you’re confused,
Cuz we both got some bruises that
We’d rather not reveal
& if you’re feeling scared,
Or simply unprepared,
It doesn’t matter where we end up
I know we can heal
We may never have a say in how to get there
But a remedy is waiting for us elsewhere
If we never know the way or how to reach it
Then we’ll get there whenever we can
Rather prepared
But a little unplanned
I wanna feel like I’m strong enough
But now I feel like I’ve had enough
I’ve tried to do it on my own
to no avail, I
Thought that I had failed,
till I met you
I used to think I wasn’t good enough
You let me know I was & sure enough,
Now that I know I’m not alone,
I can prevail, &
All that may entail,
I won’t forget to
We may never have a say in how to get there
But a remedy is waiting for us elsewhere
If we never know the way or how to reach it
Then we’ll get there whenever we can
Rather prepared
But a little unplanned
We may never have a say in how to get there
But a remedy is waiting for us elsewhere
If we never know the way or how to reach it
Then we’ll get there whenever we can
Rather prepared
But a little unplanned
When I say I
Needed someone
Didn’t know it was you
&
If I try to live
beside you
It gets easy to do
When I say I
Needed someone
Didn’t know it was you
&
If I try to live
beside you
It gets easy to do
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4. |
Out Of My Mind
03:33
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(This one's called "Out Of My Mind."
Hey listen, Johnny, you got anything to drink over there? Hang on, hang on a sec.
It's called "Out Of My Mind," it's a story about being insane.)
Now at a point I could’ve been less concerned,
Started feeling evil,
That’s not the word,
Maybe if i meditated on it, I would find it,
But I can’t find it
(& I don’t need that shit)
Now at a point, I would’ve been a bit cautious
Talking to myself, until it feels obnoxious (ah)
Way too honest, till I’m talking unconscious
Started getting nauseous
(& I don’t need that shit)
There’s nothing I can do
Cuz that’s all I’m good for
So when will I get to breathe?
Cuz that’s all I hope for
Now here it comes, I see it amongst the clouds,
It’s another falling piece of the sky,
If you could know all of what I’m seeing now,
Then I guess you would say I’m out of my mind
But they never ask why so,
There’s nothing I can do
Cuz that’s all I’m good for
So when will I get to breathe?
Cuz that’s all I hope for
(Save me)
There’s nothing I can do
Cuz that’s all I’m good for
So when will I get to breathe?
Cuz that’s all I hope for
Now everybody get your hand out,
I’m about to be attentive company
Say I got your gun, I got your gun, & leave suddenly
I load it up, now I’m stimming with the safety
Why doesn’t god ever praise me?
So get your hand out,
I’m about to be attentive company
Say I got your gun, I got your gun, & leave suddenly
I load it up, now I’m stimming with the safety
Why doesn’t god ever praise me?
(peace)
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5. |
It Could Be Better
04:02
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1am, I’m losing all my patience,
2am, I swear I hit my stride
3am, I’m waking up the neighbors
4am, the muse in me has died
But
All I know is how to be perceived
(I don’t really love you back,
I don’t really love you back, yeah)
Frankly I don’t know what to believe
(I don’t really love like that,
I don’t really love like that)
& I wanna know the future
Don’t tell me how it ends, though
If I come off as a loser,
it’s only cuz I said so
I’ve been good,
It’s been good,
But I know,
It could be better
It could be better
It could be better, better, better.
It could be better
It could be better
(ooh)
It could be better
It could be better
It could be better, better, better.
It could be better
It could be better
But it never is though,
Man, I’ve only been to san francisco
I could win a emmy,
I could win an grammy & an oscar,
’n all I’d have is my ego,
Living the dream
Sleeping through the nightmares
…in the studio,
Spending all my nights there
Might as well…
Man, I might as well…
& I wanna know the future
Don’t tell me how it ends, though
If I come off as a loser,
it’s only cuz I said so
I’ve been good,
It’s been good,
But I know,
It could be better
It could be better
It could be better, better, better.
It could be better
It could be better
(ooh)
It could be better
It could be better
It could be better, better, better.
It could be better
It could be better
(I know what you want,
You want to kill me!)
(You’re crazy… Take it easy, kid
I just wanna talk to ya)
Don’t stop
now
Carry on
Heaven is a place we don’t belong
So if
You
Don’t obey,
Why’d you even come here anyway?
Don’t stop
now
Carry on
Heaven is a place we don’t belong
So if
You
Don’t obey,
Why’d you even come here anyway?
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6. |
Kudzu
04:13
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Is it greener where you are now
Do you need it to be green
I could take over your garden
I just need to be seen
Is it beautiful, your garden?
Are there flowers where you stand?
Do you need them to be hidden?
I could give you a hand
Could I stay one
More
Night
Until I go home
It’s just one
More
Night
I swear I’ll be gone after that,
Till you come crawling back to me next
(Shit…
Fucked up in the crib
Talking to myself
Fucked up in the crib
Talking to my-
Talking to myself
Fucked up in the crib
Talking to myself
But what is myself
If I’m just trillions of single cells?
Fucked up in the crib
Talking to myself
Fucked up in the crib
Talking to my-
Talking to myself
Fucked up in the crib
Talking to myself
But what is myself
If I’m just trillions of single cells?)
Now I’ve been in therapy half my life &
I feel the same
I feel insane, daily
& I would do whatever just to get me through
& it
Doesn’t really work, like, that
but it helps,
If you wanted dishonesty,
You better see someone else
Believe me, I get it,
I’ve been struggling too
Not the greatest way to heal
But it’s something to do
Until
I’m put aside
Contrary to popular belief,
I tried
Eh
I’m terrified
One day I might know if it was
Justified
Eh
(Came from the dirt,
That’s where we’re going back
Came from the dirt,
That’s where we’re going back
Came from the dirt,
That’s where we’re going back
Grew it from the ground,
So hell yeah you know I’m
Smoking that)
…My friends are addicts,
Some are still, but some got sober
& I wanna say I’m jealous,
but it’s
been three days without,
& now I’m over it
I was so sure that
I’d be cured as I got older,
But it’s been 300 years,
& I
Still feel bitter, scared,
& inconsiderate
I’m put aside
Contrary to popular belief,
I tried
Eh
I’m terrified
One day I might know if it was
Justified
Eh
(Shit…
They never ask how the fuck he is, you know?
Shit.)
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7. |
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Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Meant to be, yeah
Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Destiny, yeah
Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Meant to be, yeah
Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Destiny, yeah
Listen to the world,
It’s speaking
Everything it says,
That’s up to you
Listen to the words
It’s seeking
Never meant to be your
Point of view
“How you’re gonna shine like that?”
Why you gotta be so dim?
I’m just tryna see me
Singing on the TV
Even if the chance is slim
“How you’re gonna live like this?”
How you’re gonna live yourself?
I’ve been hurting too, but
Nothing would improve much
Even if I killed myself
“How you’re gonna act so sure?”
Not like that I got much left
I could cut my wrists up,
I could put my fists up,
Either way, I can’t cheat death
I don’t wanna live, that’s fine,
Cuz the years will still go by, &
I don’t wanna miss them
I don’t wanna miss them
I don’t wanna miss them
Not this time
Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Meant to be, yeah
Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Destiny, yeah
Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Meant to be, yeah
Wishbones
Don’t break for me
If I get it I’ll believe that it was
Destiny, yeah
(I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,
I’m still alive,)
I lived bitch!
Okay, that’s it, goodbye
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